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Thursday, 19 June 2008
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Its been awhile...
Alright, I know its been forever since i last posted on this thing but haven't really felt the need to recently. School is school and I'm always busy working. Summer has pretty much sucked so far...no jersey shore, waking up at 9 most of the week for classes, and just busssyy. Got summoned for jury duty the other day...that should be fun getting outta that one since it doesn't look like it matters that i'm taking 12 credit hours and working 20-25 hrs a week. Yeah, i'll find a way, I mean i definitly know that i don't want to spend my day off from school to go to a court house at 8am on a friday...fuck that. So who knows how often i'll be posting on here. maybe when i get bored i'll check back in at times, if not...oh well.
Thursday, 10 May 2007
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concerts
K so this summer there are really only 2 concerts that i really wanna go to and for some reason i cant find anyone to go with me to either of them. I need to start finding friends who listen to the same music as i do up here. Tool is gonna be in AC june 9th and i know i've already seen them 2 times, but they really only go on tour every so often so seeing them again would be amazing. Also, Breaking Benjamin and Three Days Grace are gonna be playing in Philly june 1st. Well, Breaking Benjamin is my current obsession so yeah, i really wanna see them. Hopefully i'll find someone to go with me to atleast see that concert.
Wednesday, 18 April 2007
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Currently Listening
Phobia
By Breaking Benjamin
see related"Unknown Soldier", Breaking Benjamin
Border line,
Dead inside.
I don't mind,
Falling to pieces.
Count me in, violent
Let's begin, feeding the sickness.
How do I simplify,
Dislocate - the enemy's on the way.
[Chorus:]
Show me what it's like
To dream in black and white,
So I can leave this world tonight.
Full of fear,
Ever clear.
I'll be here,
Fighting forever.
Curious,
Venomous,
You'll find me
Climbing to heaven.
Never mind,
Turn back time.
You'll be fine - I will get left behind.
[Chorus]
Holding on too tight.
Breathe the breath of life,
So I can leave this world behind.
It only hurts just once.
They're only broken bones.
Hide the hate inside.
Oh.
[Very quiet voice:]
Forever ... one
I'll be fine
[Chorus]
Holding on too tight.
Breathe the breath of life,
So I can leave this world behind.I dunno, lyrics are the only things that can fully express whats going on with me currently. Even if I tried to write down all thats in my mind, it would be all jumbled and most likely not clear. That dead feeling has been lurking back in me recently. Maybe it's the stress thats getting to me. I'm scared. I just want to sleep until its all over.
Monday, 26 March 2007
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this past weekend was amazing but sad at the same time...i'll update about that later tho. Well this town feels empty, or well...i feel empty in the town now.
Makin' my way downtown,
Walkin' fast,
Faces pass and I'm homebound.
Starin' blankly ahead,
Just makin' my way,
Makin' a way through the crowd.
And I need you,
And I miss you,
And now I wonder...
If I could fall into the sky,
Do you think time
would pass me by?
'Cause you know I'd walk a thousand miles
If I could just see you...
Tonight.
It's always times like these
When I think of you,
And wonder if you ever think of me.
'Cause everything's so wrong
And I don't belong.
Livin' in your precious memory.
'Cause I need you,
And I miss you,
And now I wonder...
If I could fall into the sky,
Do you think time
would pass me by?
'Cause you know I'd walk a thousand miles
If I could just see you...
Tonight.
I, I, don't wanna let you know
I, I, drown in your memory.
I, I, don't wanna let this go.
I, I, don't.
Wednesday, 21 March 2007
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Ugh, where to begin? School's going good so far, just about 6 more weeks til it's all over. St Patty's Day Weekend was fucking amazing, despite how ridiculously drunk i ended up being on saturday night. Tallahassee on st. patty's day is just insane. Few highlights from the weekend...my friend passing out in his car while it was running once he got home for about 5 hrs then waking up realizing what happened and dusts the pollen off of him...seeing the drunks walk around the strip at like 4pm...climbing up a trench then breaking a gate and sneaking into an apartment complex just to get to a party that we had left but the complex wouldn't let us back in...the green beer! Theres other things that happened but lets just say i don't exactly remember them occurring, except for throwing up and busting my ass trying to get to my apartment. Well i guess that just about sums up the good shit. Well since i've been back in florida from spring break ive been hanging out with a someone a lot more and i ended up getting attached despite what i knew was going to happen in the end. Ends up that instead of leaving sometime in April, he leaves tomorrow morning =(. Yeah big shock for me, something i completely wasn't prepared for. Well anyways, it hurts a lot more than i thought it would. Just the thought of him leaving is painful. I fear i'll never see him again, which i hope is NOT true. Erg. Last night was bittersweet. I have a feeling it'll be awhile until i feel that happy with someone again. Maybe last night shouldn't have happened because i know its just going to make it soo much harder to see him leave, but...i'm glad the night ended the way it did because it was our last night together. I dunno, it just sucks seeing any one of your friends leave/move away.
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I'm 21 and starting my last year at FSU then interning as a student teacher in Fall '09. I wouldn't consider myself to be the typical 21 yr old. I spend my time either working, in classes, or hanging with my bf and friends.
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